Fall in Indiana

Are we having fall in Indiana this year? Don't really know. There has been so much going on. Poor Jasper hasn't found a job yet and couldn't go to school this fall. Hopefully, he will find something before Christmas.
My dad had surgery the other day on his one eye and is suppose to have surgey on the other eye on November 10. Hope he gets along just as great as he did with the first eye. Our cat and dog haven't been doing so good. I think they are getting something from each other and it just won't go away.

Might have a lead on a job myself. Pray for me, wish me luck or do both. I just want something I can do and something that has health insurance. My health isn't as good as it was 3 yrs. ago. I have pains where I didn't know a person could have pains.

Well, that's all for now. Just thought I would post something for now... Just pray for my family and I. Christmas is coming around and I really would love to buy my son some gifts this year.

Graduation Day

There's nothing like Graduation Day in high school. My one and only child graduated from high school yesterday. I am so proud of him and just want the whole world to know it! I can remember our first trip to his grade school. We were signing up for kindergarden and he was so proud to beable to go to school. Then he started, there were some problems and he was ready to call it quits. I explained to him you never give up. You just try harder. And harder is what he has always had to do. My son, has dyslexia. He has over come that so well. And even though he didn't earn an academics diploma from his high school he did earn a diploma.

Back to the grade school thing though...man I cried so hard the first day I knew he was going to kindergarden. He could count, tell me his ABC's and we had helped him learn all summer to help him learn to tie his shoes(that was the first clue there was something wrong!). The kid was smart though. You just had to read everything to him and he knew what you had read. He had so many friends and so much fun in grade school. He was "little Mr. Helper" wanting to help anyone and everyone that came along.

Then there was middle school where he became MR. Sports. There were the 56ers first, which was a fourth, fifth and sixth grade football team. And NO! it wasn't flag football either. It was the big guys stuff. My son always said flag football was for the sissy kids. After 56ers we were onto 7th and 8th grade football. In 8th grade, him and his team beat the south side of our city's middle school for the first time in almost 18 yrs. (I think that's right). That was the time of his life!! He was in on the play and you would have thought he played for the 1985 Chicago Bears Team. After football both years came wrestling. Now, I wasn't too into wrestling. But I loved it after I learned what they were doing and how they scored their points. My son never had to worry though because he almost always won by forfeit (which didn't help because then he didn't know what to do in high school when he got beat).

Our next 4 yrs. were the hardest years. He played football and wrestled. Love wrestling becasue of the coach..Coach Miller. Too bad all coaches don't coach like Coach Miller.

My son though has grown (mentally) so much while in high school and has so much information. If only I could have kept that much information in my head...I don't think I do now! He will do good in the future and find his goals. For now though it's relax time (at least 2 to 3 weeks).
I love him dearly!

Ready to find a job

Why is it when you get let go from a job people always assume it's all your fault? Not always is it your fault. You find out at new jobs people aren't tollerant at all. Or that's what I found out at my last job. I tried hard to do what they asked me and it didn't matter if I did what they wanted me to do or not they always found fault with me and with my work. I am ready to move on. I want to work! I am not getting unemployment and I did not get let go so I could go on unemployment. In fact, I had been promised a full time job from the management when I first started working for the company. I worked my way up the ladder while I was at Purdue University and I was very proud of my work there. I loved what I did. I was a prep cook, I could read receipes, and made food from scratch. I helped open the very first food court at Cary Quadrangle back when there were just cafeteria's at the University.
I am ready it find a new job. Too bad we are in the middle of a recession I would open my own little sandwich and coffee shop..not in my big city either. I would open it in one of the small towns around my big city. I would have fresh ruebens one day, Philly steak's another, and brauts with hot German Potato Salad another. And well, I am just plain tired of hearing about all the coffee war's..just give me plain coffee. Some people don't think I am strong enough to have my own shop. I would probably be the strongest I have ever been if I did have it. I would be my own boss and hire me 1 more person to work with. I would find fresh little flower's and nice little glasses, bowls, plates and silverwear that actually were my personality...I have some pink china I could use. I don't know what my dad would say about that though. He brought it back from Japan during the Korean War so it's pretty old. But it would be use for a good cause.
I do know though I am ready to find a job that is mine and mine alone.

family

I came from a family that has alot of complications. Some of us were rich, some of us were poor, some of us were Christians, and some had never even thought about turning their lives over to Christ. One thing I know for sure is that we all (especially my mother's side of the family) had our own opinions and they were the right opinions. I learnt this real quick while being a "friend" with one cousin on facebook this week. She had made a comment on where she should live here in the midwest(like should she move) and I replied. Well, I have frustrated her so much she cut me off as a friend and she sent me an e-mail accusing me of doing alot of things I did not realize I did to her. NO, I am not going to deny any of my writings because I did ask her to think about where she wanted to live by saying "neither is good". Of course, how would I know since I never lived in either place...well, this is my answer. You visit, you google, you search on the internet to see if this is the place for your family to live...wasn't the places for my family to live.

I know I probably am not making too much sense right now. I just don't understand family. when they want an opinion they really want you just to say "go ahead and do it". So, from now on I will tell you that's what I will say "go ahead and do it". Just please don't come back and tell me I was wrong...I am just agreeing with you to make you happy.

So, for now that's enough on family. I need to find a job before I drive myself into insanity. I have questions to answer myself...like, where to I go from here?, is my marriage over?, what do I tell my family if it is?, Is it all my fault?

I will be posting more later...live your life as it's the last!

Life does give us rain and sunshine

Hi ! My name is PJ. I live in the midwest and have always lived within 50 miles of where I live now...nothing exciting about that,right? I am going to tell you the story of my life here in my first blog. I am the 1rst child of 4. I have 3 brothers and no sisters( isn't that a curse!). I graduated high school and moved to a larger city 5 years after graduating some years ago. Let's just say I will have lived in this city for 30 years come May 1. That's along time compared to todays standards where we only live some place for say maybe 5 years at the most. I have been married for 23 and 3/4 yrs. of that time. I have a son..who is now almost 19 yrs. old and will graduate in May from the high school he goes to.

At 22 yrs. of age I started cooking for a University that is known world wide for it's engineering and it's pharmacy program. I loved cooking there! I had so many good years there until one day I was fired! I was fired because I had broken one of the biggest rules of my life. I allowed my temper to get the best of me and blew my stack at work. That was some 6 years ago but seems like it was just yesterday. I can still remember throwing my winter coat on the floor and stomping around like a mad woman. NOTHING COOL ABOUT THAT NOW!! I was just tired of being used the way I had been used at this place.

Now, I am trying very hard to find a job that will suit me. I have had 7 jobs you could say since working at the University. NOT GOOD!! There are bills to pay..like home equity loan, my son's senior pictures,ect. I just can't find myself these days though no matter what I to do it seems it doesn't suit me anymore. I am restless. I want what I had before but God is sending me rain all the time...nothing more. I think at times He is sending me sunshine but the rain just keeps coming... for now I gotta go. Tell you more later.