family

I came from a family that has alot of complications. Some of us were rich, some of us were poor, some of us were Christians, and some had never even thought about turning their lives over to Christ. One thing I know for sure is that we all (especially my mother's side of the family) had our own opinions and they were the right opinions. I learnt this real quick while being a "friend" with one cousin on facebook this week. She had made a comment on where she should live here in the midwest(like should she move) and I replied. Well, I have frustrated her so much she cut me off as a friend and she sent me an e-mail accusing me of doing alot of things I did not realize I did to her. NO, I am not going to deny any of my writings because I did ask her to think about where she wanted to live by saying "neither is good". Of course, how would I know since I never lived in either place...well, this is my answer. You visit, you google, you search on the internet to see if this is the place for your family to live...wasn't the places for my family to live.

I know I probably am not making too much sense right now. I just don't understand family. when they want an opinion they really want you just to say "go ahead and do it". So, from now on I will tell you that's what I will say "go ahead and do it". Just please don't come back and tell me I was wrong...I am just agreeing with you to make you happy.

So, for now that's enough on family. I need to find a job before I drive myself into insanity. I have questions to answer myself...like, where to I go from here?, is my marriage over?, what do I tell my family if it is?, Is it all my fault?

I will be posting more later...live your life as it's the last!

Life does give us rain and sunshine

Hi ! My name is PJ. I live in the midwest and have always lived within 50 miles of where I live now...nothing exciting about that,right? I am going to tell you the story of my life here in my first blog. I am the 1rst child of 4. I have 3 brothers and no sisters( isn't that a curse!). I graduated high school and moved to a larger city 5 years after graduating some years ago. Let's just say I will have lived in this city for 30 years come May 1. That's along time compared to todays standards where we only live some place for say maybe 5 years at the most. I have been married for 23 and 3/4 yrs. of that time. I have a son..who is now almost 19 yrs. old and will graduate in May from the high school he goes to.

At 22 yrs. of age I started cooking for a University that is known world wide for it's engineering and it's pharmacy program. I loved cooking there! I had so many good years there until one day I was fired! I was fired because I had broken one of the biggest rules of my life. I allowed my temper to get the best of me and blew my stack at work. That was some 6 years ago but seems like it was just yesterday. I can still remember throwing my winter coat on the floor and stomping around like a mad woman. NOTHING COOL ABOUT THAT NOW!! I was just tired of being used the way I had been used at this place.

Now, I am trying very hard to find a job that will suit me. I have had 7 jobs you could say since working at the University. NOT GOOD!! There are bills to pay..like home equity loan, my son's senior pictures,ect. I just can't find myself these days though no matter what I to do it seems it doesn't suit me anymore. I am restless. I want what I had before but God is sending me rain all the time...nothing more. I think at times He is sending me sunshine but the rain just keeps coming... for now I gotta go. Tell you more later.